Piece By Piece I Found My Peace

Piece By Piece I Found My Peace

We all have a vision. A hope. A dream. A picture perfect idea of everything we hope our person we will someday get to love to be.

Piece by piece we pray and ask The Lord, “will you bring this for me?”


I began journaling prayers for the man I’d someday marry in aspiration to gift it to him on our wedding day. They were dated, timed, intricately thought out, and faithfully prayed over.

I’ve grown to witness that the power prayer holds is something so incomparable and intimate. I undoubtedly believed if God already has and would continue to move massive mountains in my life, then he could and would explicitly create this man I dreamed of — just for me.

10.5.19 I came home from work only to find my husky got a hold of my journal and devoured it to shreds — completely disseminated my heart felt prayers all over the floor beneath me.

Initially, my heart sank because of the weight I placed in this journal, this dream, I had promised to gift one day. Now it was gone.

But piece by piece The Lord began to convict me.

What appeared to be a destroyed dream before me, ended up cultivating a new beautiful perspective.

No matter how specific I pray or how intricately I ask The Lord for my list of desired characteristics and qualities, no man will be perfect — just as I am far from perfect and in need of just as much grace.

These tattered torn pieces in front of me began to speak life as The Lord graciously reminded me of truth.As I started picking up the pieces, I realized the parts of the pages that were not destroyed were character traits and scriptures — everything else in the middle was gone.

It was in this moment I was convicted that The Lord spared the most important pieces after all, and God, as my foundation, would fill in the rest.

He will possess Godly traits, but still remain an imperfect human who will need unconditional love and grace. He may not be everything I’m wanting or longing to see, but this man will be exactly who God created him to be.

Piece by piece The Lord restored me with a newfound peace. A peace in knowing His perfect time and perfect way will pave the path to the man I will get to sacrificially love, extend grace, and serve The Kingdom with someday.

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

When The Darkness Dissipates

When The Darkness Dissipates

Imagine the darkest, desolate, deserted night.

It surrounds you. It blinds you. It disseminates fear within you.

In the moment you may feel there’s no sense or path of direction to lead you back home. You keep walking, yet you find there’s no escape. All you know is exhaustion is setting in, and you have no idea where to begin. The darkness creeps its way in to tempt you to believe this is complete and utter defeat. What then, could ever make this darkness cease?

Light.

But where? But how?


In the name of Jesus darkness dissipates.

“I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.” John 12:46

When you invite Jesus into your heart, immediately, you are granted victory from the very start. The fear that once disseminated inside you…the darkness that creeped its way in you or around you…begins a mass exodus by the one and only power of the Holy Spirit within you.

While initially you still may not physically see the light around you, you faithfully trust and believe that if your God is for you, a glimmer of hope, a glimpse of light, is surely yet to come.

You may be waiting. Waiting for a really long time. But Jesus will faithfully fill you with perseverance and endurance to keep you pressing on to not give up on your fight.

being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience” Colossians 1:11

Now — enter the light.

Even from the greatest distance, the small faint glimmer catches your eye. The darkness surrounding you is now forced into your peripheral view because there’s a light that’s drawing you. As you continue to reach for the light, you suddenly begin to regain all of your sight. When you finally embrace the light, there’s absoultely no denying the power, the warmth, and the fullness of Christ that ignites your entire being — your entire life.

It may have been a painful journey — searing, and burning the lifeless wick away; but oh, the light that illuminates once it’s finally lit by the power of Jesus’s name.

It’s a light you now carry onto your brand new journey. You can boldly walk before and into someone else’s darkness by carrying and shining this hope in Christ; to be a light reminding them there will be freedom at the end of this fight…despite the darkest of nights.

Your story has a purpose to be used for God’s glory. Whatever darkness you have carried or walked through, I can promise it will never compare to the beautiful story and brightest light God is establishing for you.

Be the light and don’t fear the dark. God has His lighter ready longing to ignite the fire in your heart. You have the power to become this light, when you run towards The Lord with a longing for Him to be the center of your life.

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome” John 1:5