We all have a vision. A hope. A dream. A picture perfect idea of everything we hope our person we will someday get to love to be.
Piece by piece we pray and ask The Lord, “will you bring this for me?”
I began journaling prayers for the man I’d someday marry in aspiration to gift it to him on our wedding day. They were dated, timed, intricately thought out, and faithfully prayed over.
I’ve grown to witness that the power prayer holds is something so incomparable and intimate. I undoubtedly believed if God already has and would continue to move massive mountains in my life, then he could and would explicitly create this man I dreamed of — just for me.
10.5.19 I came home from work only to find my husky got a hold of my journal and devoured it to shreds — completely disseminated my heart felt prayers all over the floor beneath me.
Initially, my heart sank because of the weight I placed in this journal, this dream, I had promised to gift one day. Now it was gone.
But piece by piece The Lord began to convict me.
What appeared to be a destroyed dream before me, ended up cultivating a new beautiful perspective.
No matter how specific I pray or how intricately I ask The Lord for my list of desired characteristics and qualities, no man will be perfect — just as I am far from perfect and in need of just as much grace.
These tattered torn pieces in front of me began to speak life as The Lord graciously reminded me of truth.As I started picking up the pieces, I realized the parts of the pages that were not destroyed were character traits and scriptures — everything else in the middle was gone.
It was in this moment I was convicted that The Lord spared the most important pieces after all, and God, as my foundation, would fill in the rest.
He will possess Godly traits, but still remain an imperfect human who will need unconditional love and grace. He may not be everything I’m wanting or longing to see, but this man will be exactly who God created him to be.
Piece by piece The Lord restored me with a newfound peace. A peace in knowing His perfect time and perfect way will pave the path to the man I will get to sacrificially love, extend grace, and serve The Kingdom with someday.