You hit your breaking point. You hit that wall.
The point to where you just feel you have exhausted all efforts to give anything and everything you have. The wall that has been cemented around your heart in attempt to protect what’s left.
Sometimes we set aside pain until it becomes utterly debilitating because we want to be “strong”.
It took falling on my knees, weeping, to realize I’ve allowed myself to drown into depths of pain I didn’t even know existed.
The ball and chain had won. I was being controlled by my hurts and hangups.
But I didn’t have to be.
Forgiveness is HARD. It’s one of the toughest choices and acts of grace one can perform.
Holding on to hurt binds you chain by chain, creating distance, until the sight and even thought of forgiveness is of the impossible.
I’ve learned that the hard way.
While I longed for peace, I held on to resentment. While I longed for hope, I held on even tighter to my past and current pains. It was a never ending cycle.
I just completed a Bible study called “Forgiving Those Who Wound Us” in the “Bible” App. Through this study God spoke the healing I have been longing for.
(If you are currently going through the same struggle, please challenge yourself to it!)
We often quickly fixate on our own pain, the unfairness of it, and even the shock itself. What’s devastating is how quickly we forget how SMALL our trials are compared to what Christ suffered due to our OWN sin!
Jesus faced persecution to SAVE us because we are WORTHY in HIS eyes! If we rely on God’s grace to forgive us in our brokenness, we are expected to do the same.
“Then Peter came to him and asked, ‘Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?’, ‘No, not seven times,’ Jesus replied, ‘but seventy times seven!'”-Matthew 18:21-22.
We are imperfect people. We can thank sin for that.
“Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace.” – Colossians 3:13-15
Humbling yourself in accepting you can be weak gives Jesus the power he longs for to provide you strength.
Forgiveness is a daily conscious choice. Good news!
You may never get your answer, that apology, or the change you hope to see someday; don’t lose heart because Jesus is the ultimate healer.
Only Jesus himself can fill the void, and place your heart back together piece by peace.
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” – Psalm 147:3
Break your chains one by one.
Let your heart be put back together.
Come find rest.
Forgive and become free!
Jesus guarantees it’s worth it.
“Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through EVERY circumstance.” 1 Corinthians 13:7.